Shankar Arunachalam -Arsha Vidya Australia
Upadesha Sahasri Chapter 5 Buddhi Aparadha Prakaranam Verse 1 to 2
If Sruti says I am Brahma and I should use only knowledge to comprehend, and if it is so simple, why everyone does not claim this truth?
There is a story called Aakhyayika. There is a story of a sage called Udanka Rishi. This rishi did lot of tapas. As a result of this tapas, Vishnu appeared. Vishnu asked what boon he wants. In the deva loka every evening the devatas drink soma juice for continuing to being immortal. I also want this amritam which the devas have every day.
Vishnu said ‘OK’. He told Indra to provide this amritam to this rishi. But this Indra was very insecure. If you give something which you have and, in that process, the other person becomes equal to you, it is a problem for someone, especially in Karma. E.g. a person might not teach everything and might hold back something so that his importance is known.
But in Brahma Vidya, this is not there. In all Karma Phalas this insecurity is there. This knowledge cannot be stolen nor will make another person more secure than what he already is.
But Indra cannot ‘No’ to Vishnu. So, he did a trick. He did not go as Indra but went as Chandala (an ugly person or an outcast person). There was a pot which had amritam which he tied around his waist with a string in such a way that the pot was hanging near his thighs. Then he asked the rishi, you want Amritam, here it is.
Udanka rishi saw that someone is offering Amritam to me who does not look like Indra. He looks a different person and what he is giving is like Urine. (Mootra Ashanka). Even though it was amritam, the viparita bhavana was strong. So, he defied the Amritam.
This way people deny aham brahma asmi. Because of this viparita bhavana. Amritam is given, but people will not take it.
1. Mootra Ashanka – due to the doubt created in the mind that the amritam can be urine
2. Yatha uddankaha – Just like the rishi Udanka
3. Amritam na agrahit – the rishi did not take or consume the amritam as he thought that if he consumes this urine, he will also become a chandala or would inherit the qualities. This is due to the defect in the intellect or wrong thinking despite doing all karmas, tapas etc.
So, this viparita bhavana prevented the Rishi from consuming the amritam despite his tapas, karma phalam etc. This rishi also had a mind block that if this person who is a chandala cannot be offering me Amritam. So, we mistake sometimes the appearance of the body or the person and conclude that the person cannot give certain things.
4. Tatha – In the same way
5. Bhaya Janthu – all jivas are afraid (of karma phala nasah)
6. Karma phala nasah –Karma phala nasah bhayat, future karmas I will lose interest which is taken as negative. E.g. if I study brahma gyanam, people may say that why you are not attending my parties. But you will say I am not interested. In another Upanishad, the acharya says, people are weird. That which gives you fearlessness in that they see fear. Abhaya bhaya darshanam.
7. Atma gyana agrahit – In the same way, the people are afraid of pursuing this atma gyanam as the fear of losing punyam due to karma, tapas will be no longer available.
We are not worried if our papams are not destroyed. But I do not want to let go of my Punyam which I have accumulated for going to deva loka or brahma loka should be wasted. Also, the fear of losing something which is treasured is also there.
Verse 2
What is the Karanam for my mistake or bramaha? The fact that I am not owning up Brahma. The mistake committed is just like
1. Naugatasya yatha vrkshaya – Nauka means boat and the boat is moving, the boat moves in one direction and the trees also seem to be moving. Likewise, the samsara is in buddhi, but I think samsara is in Atma. Just as movement of boat is superimposed on trees which are not moving, likewise movement of intellect is superimposed on the Atma.
2. Buddhis Taha – Atma which is expressing in intellect, but untouched by intellect.
3. Chalati iva, dhyayati iva ca drysyate-The movement of the intellect in the mind is understood as the movement of the Atma. Chalati means movement (Karmendriya and Prana) , Dhyati iva – as though Atma is thinking (Gnana Indriya and antha karana). Because of error in perception, both these Chalati and dhyayati is superimposed on the atma. Chalati Iva – doership, Dhyati iva – knowership. Knowledge is taking place only in intellect and not in Atma. Is atma meditating or mind? But we say that “I am meditating or meditator’ also an error. Upanishad says even if I know Brahman it’ also an error, as Brahman cannot be known as an object of knowledge.
4. Samsara vibhramah – Delusion about being a samsari. I have a lot of things to do, busy, cannot achieve this etc are wrong notions. Ahamkara thrives on and looking for its own existence internally. Ahamkara says ‘don’t touch me’ but you can do whatever you want (study, make notes, etc). Ahamkara – Iam this person notion must be uprooted so that Ahamkara does not thrive.